uh, hi. remember me? yeah, it's been awhile. let's crank this puppy up again.

Hello, friends.

It's been awhile.
It's not you. It's me. 
And my busy, crazy life.
And my seriously annoying perfectionist personality.

It is a very Caroline thing to charge into something full speed ahead, only to fizzle and fart shortly thereafter. Truly, I decided to take a break because I realized that my blogging time was actually my one-on-one time with my daughter and I found myself telling her, "Just a minute, Mommy is busy." uhoh. Priorities out of line, much? oops. So I told myself I would take a short break. Then I realized I hadn't blogged for a year. Then I was embarrassed that I had dropped the ball. Then I felt unworthy of blogging because, well, I hadn't gotten a handle on this whole body image thing. I still obsessed about my image and didn't feel like I should blog about it until I had the whole thing figured out and was completely above my weakness. I took notes for ideas for blog posts, but never sat down to hammer one out. Until today. Something has been triggered lately, and I finally feel like I have something to say about it. And that is.....I FAILED. But I'm okay. No, really. I am. (The people who know me best are raising their eyebrows right now, with the thought "prove it" tatooed across their brains!) I have found peace in my failure and a realization that this is not something I can do on my own. I am human. I make mistakes. I have a frequent attitude of pridefulness and a WHOPPER of an ego. I am limited to what I can imagine and what I can willpower (yes, I'm using it as a verb, more coming on that later) through. I realized that this issue comes from my upbringing, my social network, society as a whole, and the pervasive negativity, be it spritual, societal, or emotional, that nibbles around the corners of my little brain. Whoo! Put all of those things together and it's a bit much for little ol' me to conquer. But guess what?? There is something, someONE bigger than all of this. I started leaning on Him and things started to change. I am still very early in this process, and I know it will be a lifelong journey, so here goes....